Crazy Times

We are still here, there has been alot going on in our lives and to top it off our Internet is not working so I have to do all our computer stuff elsewhere(reason for lack of posts) but we are all doing well, Raegan turn 3 years old and poor thing was totally sick on her birthday and we had to cancel her birthday party but we will have it on the 21st of this month. i know some of you must be thinking that is a long time to wait considering her birthday was Feb 19th, but we are waiting for her cousin Ali to do a combined party. Thankful all the family is now healthy and there is no sickness left in our house. We are moving down a couple of block and are very sad about the move but we just got caught up in the bad economy and our house isn't worth what we bought it for and is just too much for us to handle. We were going to develop our land to pay off the loan but the market crashed and we bought high and so life goes on. We had a scare with family the last couple of weeks. Grandpa Herdman is really sick and poor baby Maddox had to be but in the NICU. But for now all is well. And at the top of the mountain(at least to us) I have to go in to have a D&C today. Apparently I had a blighted Ovum and miscarried. I found out last week that this was a possibility and I took it pretty hard. We were so excited to add another blessing in our lives especially with all the crap going on but I guess it just isn't the right time. Though the Church helps give us knowledge and light, sometimes we just have to go through are dark times to build our faith. Let me tell you this last few month have been real faith testing months and all I can say is when it rains... it pours!! I am doing alot better now, yesterday I found out for sure that I would miscarry and it was rough, all your dreams and hopes about this new life inside you is just taken away, so needless to say I was a mess yesterday and still get a little emotional today, But I KNOW, I know that everything happens for a reason and right now that baby was not supposed to be here with us! Through all of this I have to say I have the world's greatest husband!! He has been so supportive and loving and a tremendous strength to me. So as you can tell we have had some tough times but we are getting through them and all will be ok( gotta love the temple and the spirit that presides there! which gets me mad that HBO would want to air a reenactment of the sacred ordinances that take place there!!!) I have to go get ready I will be back later with hopefully a more happier post about the girls b-day party and also some pics of the things I have sewn!